Why Me? by Catturd. I'm exhausted - mentally and physically. This Catturd thing

Why Me? by Catturd.

I'm exhausted - mentally and physically. This Catturd thing has been a 5 year rollercoaster ride. I basically work 7 days a week; no days off, no vacations. I don't even know how I got here. I often ask, why me?

I have no idea how I've gained such a large following - sometimes I think it's mostly luck. Most the larger accounts on the conservative side have lived a very different life than me. In short, they did most everything right in life, and I did almost everything wrong - lol.

You couldn't get a more flawed and imperfect person than me. Although I've never been in trouble with the law, arrested, and only had one traffic ticket in my life - I was aimlessly adrift for many of my early years.

I joined the Army at 17-years-old, once my service was over - I basically started immediately screwing up. I was so lost. I had several failed marriages when I was way too young and had no idea what love was. Then I spent over a decade as a hippie musician, growing my hair, carefree, smoking weed, drinking too much, and even using some hard drugs. (I even had a VW hippie van - lol ) I was homeless at one point, living in a tent beside a lake for months. I fought alcoholism pretty hard during these times and still have to watch myself today.

Don't get me wrong, I don't regret a moment of my life, because I strongly believe it takes lots of failures to become successful at anything.

I finally seemed to get my shit together around the age of 40. It took me long enough - lol.

At the age of 54, I decided to join social media for the first time because I suddenly got arthritis in my fingers where I lost the ability to play guitar. I was lost again and needed some kind of artistic outlet. Sometimes I think Catturd saved me in a way.

With this reach and when you truly speak your mind, The Left will viscously try to destroy you. YOU MUST BE SILENCED and it never ends.

For just giving my honest opinions, I've been doxxed, harassed, 100 hit pieces written about me, people come by house and scream obscenities, tons of death threats, and on and on. Everyone I've known for 40 years and many of my family members have been bullied and relentlessly harassed for years.

Sometimes I don't know why a screw-up like me was give this much reach. I pray every night I'll use this opportunity the right way to help as many people as possible - and pets. I'm always struggling in which direction to go.

I can honestly say, however, the love I get from my followers pushes me through the hard times, when I'm exhausted or down. Whether it's on social media or on our podcast, I try to make people laugh every day to ease the pain of what this country is going through.

In closing on this novel, I feel so blessed to have the support and love from so many of you. I don't claim to be perfect, but I'll always give you my raw and unfiltered opinions, right or wrong. I'm not afraid and I'm fighting for this country as hard as I can.

All of you saved me - I love you all.

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